don't shit on my craft

i'm a writer. yup, i am. i tried to deny this gift but i couldn't. i wasn't born knowing i could write. but i discovered and dammit i'm good at it. could i make a career of it? who knows. but it's not why i put the proverbial pen to paper. i don't do it to make money. hell i don't even write for the masses. i write out of enjoyment. i write because sometimes...i just have to. i may never finish a story but sometimes i just have to get those thoughts to paper.

i was talking to a friend of mine while she was doing my hair. she mentioned that i could be "rich and famous". i just nodded and didn't really comment. yes, it would be nice to not have to punch a clock and get dressed in order to make a living. i would love to wake up, make a pot of jamaican blue mountain roast and power up the laptop and crank out some chapters and shoot them to my overpaid editor in new york that only calls me 'babe" or "bubulah". but alas, that's not my path... or at least it isn't right now.

do i even care to make it rich with my writing? i don't think i do. do i care that the people who read it will enjoy it? yes i care a great deal. am i going to let it make or break me or stop me from picking up a pen? hell nah!

then i was speaking to another friend, a fellow writer. he asked if i was going to use an alias when i published. um.. why would i do that? i wrote this not some fake ass named person. i want folks to know that Ms. Tee wrote every single solitary juicy erotic ass word on every damn page! i don't want folks guessing as to what i may look like or what kind of person i am. you're gonna know it cause i'm gonna post my fat ass face on the back of every book and have it plastered on my website. bam! right there in your face with it!

someone once asked me why do i write about sex and if i've done everything i've written about. i write about sex because i like it... well love it. why not write about it? and it's not always about the sex. there's a story around the sex. i promise. also, as to whether or not i've done everything... well some of it. maybe not in that same scenario but i've done it. and if i haven't done, i've probably seen it in a porno or some other racy ass show and thought "well why the hell not!"

please don't compare me to zane. i have nothing against her. i have her books and i follow her on facebook. but i'm not her and don't profess to be like her. my name is tarius and that's the only person i can be like. now if you ask if i write in the same genre as zane, i would answer yes. but i am NOT like her.

i know this was kinda all over the place... but i'm an artist and i can do that shit. if you don't like it, get the hell on somewhere. ain't nobody ask you shit no damn way! don't come at me twisted about my shit if you can't offer constructive criticism. don't come at me with no bullshit about it ain't this and it ain't that. in the words of a famous lyricist, Erykah Badu "keep in mind i'm an artist. and i'm sensitive about my shit!" if you ain't tryna raise me up, i don't need you tryna tear me down!

smooches!