tumble down...

wow... damn... it's been a good lil minute since i've been on here. wow. where have i been! geez! anyway... guess i'll catch you up on me. um... since august....

well on 2nd thought... i don't feel like doing all that.

i'm in my feelings. nah not those "i need some slow jams and brown liquor" feelings. i'm deep in them... like dark thoughts. some of them may frighten the faint of heart.

i want to "rape and torture" my lover. i want to tie them up. i want to slit their shirt from the bottom to the top. then straddle their helpless body and press the knife to their throat. "don't say a word,bitch", i'd whisper. "i don't want to hurt you but i will if you say a word." i'd stuff the remnants of their shirt into their mouth.before getting off their body. i'd then divest them of their pants and once they're completely naked... i'd survey my prey; staking out my approach.... so many possibilities....

i also think i have a problem with the word bitch... i fricking love that word! omg... so fucking sexy. well i meant during sex. i once had a guy that i would do self love for. i could rub my figgy pudding and then he'd say in this low powerful voice "cum for me, bitch" and i swear my entire fuckin body would convulse! hot as hell! now if you call me a bitch outside of the bedroom, eh... i don't think i'd cum. well depends on WHY you said it. but it's a turn on while we are in that zone. i know i've called a few of my lovers a bitch. heeeheee... shocked a couple of them. but hell, i was on it!

pain is pleasure. yes i love some pain with my sex. spank me, bite me, choke me.... yes yes yes and moooore yeeeeees!

i also get in my little girl feelings. no... not that i want to be a kid again. but i want to have my "daddy" cuddle me while he tell me all of the dirty slutty things that he will be doing to me.

i'm not even going to get into my deep fascination with femdom! *sssqqquuueeaaal!!!!*

ok i gotta go so i can burrow deep into this hole and satisfy myself mentally with my thoughts.

smooches...bitch!!